Diabetes and my addiction journey

January 18th, 2025 – Diabetes and my addictions

I’m back for good now. It’s been a long time since my last update, and a lot has happened in the interim. I needed to step away to sort through personal challenges, and in doing so, I realized that I may have been battling a form of depression. Negative self-talk, low motivation, and a general dissatisfaction with myself crept in, despite 2024 being a remarkably positive year overall. It’s surprising how easily thoughts can spiral and, once they gain momentum, how difficult it can be to regain control. The mind is indeed a powerful space.

One thing that has helped me anchor myself is CrossFit. It remains my lifeline when everything else feels overwhelming. Every time I step into the box, I feel a sense of accomplishment, connection, and purpose. Even small interactions—conversations, a shared laugh, or witnessing someone else push through their limits—remind me that I belong to a community that fosters growth and positivity.

A Milestone Worth Celebrating

At the time of writing, I’m just weeks away from marking one year of sobriety—a milestone that once felt impossibly out of reach. Looking back, I didn’t know how I was going to manage it, but I leaned into the support of the NA programme, my friends, my family, and my partner. The “just for today” mindset has been transformative. By focusing on taking life one day at a time, I’ve not only stayed clean but have also begun to rebuild my life with a new perspective.

This past year has taught me so much about resilience, vulnerability, and the power of support. Addiction is a relentless and isolating force, but recovery has shown me that there is a way forward. The progress I’ve made is proof that change is possible, no matter how impossible it may seem at the start.

Looking Ahead: Writing and Community Impact

As I reflect on this journey, I know there’s still work to be done. One of my biggest unfinished goals is completing my Diabetes Short eBook and the larger Conscious Diabetic Book. These projects have been weighing on me for years, and I’ve let self-doubt and procrastination hold me back. Writing it here is my way of holding myself accountable. I owe it to myself—and to the diabetes community—to finish these works, as I believe they could genuinely help others navigate their own journeys.

What Comes Next

For now, I’ll leave it here. Tomorrow, I’ll dive into the next steps of discipline I’m setting for myself, both in training and in life. My focus is on consistent growth—physically, mentally, and emotionally.

To anyone reading this: if you’re facing challenges, know that change starts with small, intentional steps. You don’t need to have it all figured out today. Just start where you are, and trust that the path will unfold.

Here’s to new beginnings, continued progress, and the unwavering belief that we’re capable of so much more than we think.